Today is a big day. Get disconnected from my chemotherapy then shortly later go for my scan to see if the chemo is working.
At this point I am not sure what to expect. The few times I felt positive going into scans, such as the 2-1/2 year scan, which would have meant I was probably going to be cancer free, my first immunotherapy scan, my first scan after this new chemotherapy and a scan a few weeks ago have all let-downs. My cancer was back, the immunotherapy was not working, the chemo was kind of working and the tumors in my spine were growing.
Avistan was added for the last 5 treatments or so there is more time to see if it is working and the spine issues could be inflammation. I am not sure how much I am buying into either of these at this time. Usually I should be showing better results this far into this new treatment. But I have been a bit of an outlier with some things along the way in terms of mets and mutations. Plus still being able to train for triathlons.
My back pain is minor, at most, and my breathing is still well enough to exercise - in fact my breathing is fine for the most part and seems more like allergy season and some more issues on chemo week where shortness of breath can be from the drugs as much as the cancer. I will not go in with high hopes despite all this. It is a lot tougher thinking there is good news coming and getting bad news as opposed to expecting bad news and getting some good things. Cautious optimistic hope is that at least things all stopped growing this time.
But perhaps the cavitation from the last scan was a good sign. I will see.
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