And The Wait Begins - #scanxiety

Had a scan today at Memorial Sloan Kettering.  It is the first scan that I have had since going back on chemotherapy.  I have had five cycles of FOLFORI, of which four were on standard b-weekly schedule after the first treatment which made me violently ill.

Your mind plays games with you. I was pretty certain that something seemed off when I was in the scan today.  That there seemed to be a lot longer breaks between sliding into the machine, being told to hold my breath, then breathe.  

Got the CD of the scan like I always do.  I am far from even being borderline competent on reading these things, but there is a location or two that I know.  Overall it looks like there was not a readily visible improvement, though I think a couple of places may have shrunk a small amount.  But the overall impression is there is a ton of stuff still in there about the same size.  I was hoping it would be clearly clear.

These are three images from three scans.  A year and a half-ago, 3 months ago and today.  I tried to match the same location in the scans each time, though there may be some minor variances.  These are in no particular order. But it is pretty clear which one is clearer and which two are toss-ups.  Or so I think.

I can go in and try to measure things more precisely.  And I may do so at some point over the next few days.   But it will be a long few days until I find out officially what is going on.  I think at the very least it may be holding things at bay, but hoping the couple of things I think are shrinking are in fact shrinking.

This first scan since starting chemo really brings out major #scanxiety Will have NFL Playoffs to take up some time this weekend and keep my mind off this a bit.  I hope 😀

And if anyone can tell which is which and whether there is a change in my condition, that would be greatly appreciated.  Answers coming on Monday.😎